I got you a doughnut.
Apparently.
What are you doing today?
My least favorite thing in the world.
Looking for an apartment?
Yeah, I'll be out of here in 48 hours,
for both of our sakes.
What about your old apartment?
Kenny got arrested,
so I don't think he needs it anymore.
I don't think being neighbors is such a great idea.
We had a fight.
I bought you a doughnut.
A really big fight about some really big issues
that aren't gonna go away because you got me a doughnut.
Remember that Usher-themed party I had?
I remember searching the entire house for a TYLENOL.
Is it too late to apologize for that?
No. Never.
I miss you, Daddy.
Who are you talking to?
I'm talking to...
To the chair?
If you can't fall asleep on your own,
you can have that Ambien you've been asking for.
You sleep, I go away.
I don't need an Ambien.
Okay.
I'll be keeping an eye on you, Dr. Glassman.
Trying to hop a fence, Mac?
I wanna go home.
We will, sweetie, as soon as we fix you up.
Mac has Fragile X Syndrome.
A genetic disorder characterized by intellectual disability,
behavioral issues, and hyperactivity.
The good news is that the picket hasn't compromised
any vital organs, major nerves, or arteries.
The bad news is that it splintered inside his shoulder.
Oh, let's get this stick out of you, Mac.
- Will it hurt? - Not a bit.
You're gonna sleep through the whole thing.
Third time's the charm, right, Shaun?
Her name's Bill...
Short for "Sybil."
She likes things nice and simple.
Possible internal bleeding, heel bone calcaneus fractures,
tibial pilon fractures, and cervical fractures.
Her name's Kitty Kwon.
Hey, Kitty. You know where you are?
Unfortunately, yeah.
I was 150 feet from the summit.
Would've been the first female free solo.
Free solo?
Climbing without ropes.
Synced & corrected by -robtor- www.addic7ed.com
Let's tidy up these bleeders, irrigate the wound,
and close him up.
How do you find a new friend?
Lea is very mad at me.
Well, whatever you did to her, apologize.
I did. I said, "I'm sorry."
It may take even more than that.
Make a statement. Go big.
An apology's an apology.
If she doesn't accept it, just walk away.
And there we have the entire spectrum of male response...
Dazzle them or dump them.
Just be nice to her, Dr. Murphy.
I don't like you looking like this.
I want you in a suit
with one of my famous ties.
I had more ties than birthdays.
How did that happen?
- You know what's funny? - What?
I only have great memories of you.
What about all those other memories?
Why can't I remember them?
Good memories are like a beautiful song.
You don't want them to ever end.
I don't think that's all we should talk about.
You're looking awfully sleepy.
Our clock is ticking. We need to get to the good stuff.
You know, Dad, the real reason I'm here.
The surgery went very well.
We got every bit of picket, and Mac is recovering nicely.
- Oh, thank you. - He should be able to go home today.
This is all good news, Nicole.
I know. I know. I was... I was just...
I was hoping to have one night without him.
Katherine!
- Mom. Dad. - Thank God you're alive.
Thank you.
Unfortunately, there's still a serious issue
we have to deal with. Kitty has cervical fractures.
She broke her neck.
Luckily, we can repair it by fusing her spine.
Your range of motion will be restricted,
but when everything else heals,
you should be walking within three months.
Will I be able to climb again?
Not at that level, and certainly not free solo.
They should've just left me on that mountain to die.
Then I think you'll prefer the second option...
The Odontoid Screw Procedure.
It doesn't involve vertebral fusion
and could maintain your full range of motion.
Seriously? Sign me up!
The spinal fusion surgery is generally preferred
because it has higher healing rates
and more favorable long-term results.
But the screw procedure's less invasive,
so there's reduced collateral injury
and no permanent damage.
Would she be able to climb again?
Free solo? Everything?
Eventually, yes.
Can I say yes now?
Yes!
No.
If you give her this operation, you'll be killing her.
You can get help.
You mean IEPs, speech therapy,
or a behavioral mod?
Have you considered a residential facility, a group home?
Give him away? To strangers?
To professionals who can help him.
He was abandoned by his father.
I'm all that he has left.
God, he was such a beautiful baby.
And he was perfectly normal, walking, talking...
But just after he turned two,
we noticed a change.
He started to lose his words. He was going backwards.
When we got the test results,
everything we'd hoped for our perfect, little boy was...
Was gone.
By the time he was nine, he was too much for my husband.
And that was before his growth spurt
and before his mood swings became...
I don't want to give him up. I... I just...
I just wanted a break for one lousy night.
Nobody blames you for that, Nicole.
And you don't have to send your son anywhere.
I'm sure that'd be devastating for a kid like Mac.
I don't go to church, I swear,
and I have sex with strange men.
Your room's on the left.
Yes, it would.
Then he'd get used to it.
It started with a broken arm and a concussion.
The next time, it was a shattered femur and a ruptured spleen,
then a broken pelvis,
then a skull fracture
that put her into a coma for three days.
She needs this crazy... fix.
I'm not an adrenaline junkie!
Okay, when I climb, adrenaline is the enemy.
I need to be calm, relaxed, and focused, or this happens.
You've always wanted me to believe I can do anything I want.
Each time that I summit, every roadblock in my life melts away.
It's what I live for.
We... We just want you to keep living.
And I will, Dad,
but I can think of worse things than dying doing what I love.
Mr. and Mrs. Kwon, I understand how you're feeling,
but your daughter's 18.
It's her decision.
Thank you, Dr. Reznick.
I'd like to proceed with your surgery.
Remember you telling me when you grew up,
you wanted to be a nurse... A "male nurse"?
- You're deflecting. - Yes, I am.
I'm deflecting. I am... deflecting.
What is the point, Maddie?
Let's get to this, Daddy. What do you say?
- Who are you talking to? - Shaun, what are you doing?
You don't sneak up on me like that.
You may be experiencing delirium
with possible auditory and/or visual hallucinations.
- I'm fine. - It may be a symptom
- of severe post-operative... - Shaun, Shaun, I'm fine.
I'm just... I'm really... I'm just really tired.
I'm...
I'm remembering.
Lying to your little buddy.
I thought you two were Gilligan's Island-tight.
I'm just remembering.
Okay.
Lea said I was a total jerk and a jackass,
even though all I did was tell her the truth,
and then I did everything right,
but she still got mad at me again.
I thought this was Maddie time.
I asked for advice,
and Dr. Park told me to go big
and Dr. Melendez told me to walk away
and JL the anesthesiologist,
she told me to be nice, but I don't know which...
Shaun, Shaun, Shaun, I just... I'm not
in the best wisdom mode at the moment. Okay?
I'll tell Dr. Dulay you may be experiencing psychosis.
I'm not psychotic, Shaun.
There's no need to bother her.
It won't bother her. It's her job.
- Shaun, stop! - He won't listen to you, Daddy.
- He never does! - Maddie, please! Will you please!
I'm having a vision.
Just a vision.
Maybe it's the drugs. I don't know.
You're talking to Maddie.
Shaun, can you keep this between us?
Please? Just for a little while.
Okay.
We both know he can't keep a secret worth a damn.
We'd better get to it.
I don't want to get to it.
I want to talk about the rest of it.
I want to talk about the... The...
The Usher parties and the ties.
Why can't we talk about your track meets?
Because we're past that, Daddy.
We need to talk about why you're talking to a ghost,
why I'm not sitting here for real, holding my father's hand.
Good dreams, please. Good dreams.
You want good dreams?
Go ahead. Take your pill.
This has got to happen, Daddy. You know it.
What if they're right? What if we are, in effect,
killing their daughter by giving her the surgery she wants?
These are not issues doctors should think about.
That's what we tell ourselves
because it makes it easier for us to just do our job
and not worry about whether we're helping or hurting.
For all we know, on her next climb,
she may meet her soul mate.
If, on the other hand,
you're not God and, like the rest of us,
you have no idea what will happen to her,
then you should back off.
Focus on the medical issues,
because as long as Kitty's a competent adult,
it's all moot.
This is the two-bedroom.
The one-bedroom went about an hour ago.
Oh, no. I wanted the one.
Sorry. This has a much bigger living room and a much better view.
And a much bigger price.
Oh, I didn't know it had a fireplace!
Damn it, Willow, I just fell in love with this place,
which is just cruel, since I definitely can't afford it.
You fall in love very quickly.
Shaun?
I found a cheaper apartment with comparable amenities.
I wrote down the address.
What are you doing here?
You said you hated apartment hunting,
so I decided to help you.
That's being nice.
And don't forget about the doughnut.
That isn't being nice. It's being creepy.
- Did you follow me here? - No.
I saw the rental address
highlighted on your tablet this morning.
That is creepy, too.
You know, I didn't ask for your help, Shaun.
I do not need your help, and I don't want your help.
Katherine, if you won't reconsider this surgery...
I won't.
then we have to consider other options.
The decision is yours, unless
we have you declared mentally incompetent.
You're saying that I might be crazy?
You were in Vienna for my Sweet 16.
I was the keynote speaker.
And that birthday card signed by your secretary.
What's the point, Maddie?
All the committees and councils and boards,
evenings, weekends, holidays...
- I was working my ass off. - That's just an excuse.
You were avoiding me.
Oh, I was avoiding you?
When I was home, you paid no attention to me
or anything I had to say.
I heard you've been experiencing some delirium...
possibly hallucinations.
Shaun.
I kept our secret
for 30 minutes.
He betrayed you. He's not a friend.
It could just be ICU psychosis
brought on by lack of sleep, but, as you know,
or would know, if you weren't psychotic,
it could be a lot worse.
It could be an indicator of surgical complications,
like infection or cerebral ischemia.
I'm not psychotic. I'm just tired.
Oh, my God.
Either take the pill or I'm gonna knock you out.
All right. Nighty-night.
How sweet.
You're willing to risk your life to finish our little story.
- This is ridiculous! - Why do you say that, Kitty?
This is about two overbearing parents who just can't let go.
She wants to kill herself.
I fell off that mountain. I didn't jump.
You said you'd be happy to die
as long as you were climbing.
Mom, what I meant is, people take risks all the time,
risks that reduce their lifespan,
every time they get into a car or they smoke a cigarette.
We're all doing the same thing,
just calculating our chances and hoping we defy the odds.
What about when you took the sleeping pills?
It was four years ago, after I'd been dumped on Twitter.
And I'd called my parents as soon as I had done it.
It was hardly a suicide attempt.
You spent the night in the ER.
They said you nearly died.
Ugh. I'm such an idiot.
I... I... I thought the window was open.
That's what I get for keeping them so clean.
Possible nerve, vessel, and ligament injury,
and she's lost a lot of blood.
Let's get her into an OR now.
Mom! No!
I'll stay with him.
It's gonna be okay, sweetie. Ask Deezer.
Mom, where are you going?
No!
2 milligrams lorazepam.
And some ice.
Kitty believe the surgery her parents want
- will make her an invalid. - That's not true.
She won't be able to be a top athlete,
but the impairment will be minor.
She'll be able to enjoy an active and safe lifestyle.
That minor impairment could be as much
as a 50% restriction of head rotation
and a reduction in flexion extension.
That's worst-case scenario.
It's a permanent disability.
All kids make bad choices.
Kitty's may be worse than most,
but are we really gonna hobble an adult woman?
Adult? She's 18.
It's the definition.
And two months ago, she was 17 and a helpless child?
I mean, she's obviously just as immature
and unreasonable as ever.
This is about your mother, isn't it?
If you could've controlled her, you would've prevented
a lot of pain to herself and others.
Thank you. I think I have enough to make my decision.
I'm sorry
that I hit you.
When you get scared,
do you think about something that helps you?
Deezer.
Do you?
Think about something?
School change their dress code?
I'm not going to school.
Mr. Decker's still substituting.
I know Ken.
Dated him in high school.
He's a real horse's ass.
Tough titmouse. Get dressed.
Tough titmouse.
I see a vibrant, engaged young woman.
But I also see a reckless disregard for your life.
And it's not clear to me if that's a pathological state
or simply a product of youth.
Either way,
I have to err on the side of the preservation of that life.
No.
I'm sorry, Kitty.
No.
Oh, my God.
Nothing I ever did was enough.
When I was home, you were out
or you were high, or both.
You don't remember that, do you?
You've always found lots of time for Shaun.
Oh, stop. Shaun has special needs.
- He had no one else. - I had needs.
I was lost and confused. I needed my father!
Now? Now you tell me? Now?
When it... When it mattered,
when it might've made a... A difference,
you... You turned me away every time,
screaming, "You don't know me!"
- You don't! - I know.
I know!
I have no idea who you are!
I have no idea what you wanted,
what you wanted from me!
- I wanted you to be there! - I was there!
Not enough, obviously. Otherwise...
Otherwise?
Otherwise...
You were such a happy little girl.
We were best friends.
I... I don't get it.
What happened?
What made you so unhappy?
You did.
My only sin was growing up.
When I couldn't be your little pinafore princess anymore,
you wanted nothing to do with me.
That's not true.
I loved you, and I still love you.
I hate you.
And I died hating you.
Think I'm gonna let you off that easy?
The night.
Let's talk about that.
Tequila... Stat.
I went big.
♪ Baby, when I met you There was peace unknown
♪ I set out to get you with a fine-tooth... ♪
Karaoke?
Hershey meant everything to me, Shaun.
I took the biggest chance of my life going back there.
And then it just...
Then it just went away.
But I knew I could come back here
to get the support of my friend,
who was so different because he was so open
and nice and honest.
But you gave me nothing.
You... You never even asked me once,
"What happened in Hershey?"
You just...
You just didn't care.
It went very well.
You should get most of the sensation back in your hand,
but we do need to monitor your motor strength and perfusion.
Okay.
We know Mac caused your injury.
No, I told you... I... I cut it on a window.
No, Mac has never hurt anyone.
What were you doing to him?
Trying to help him.
You need to find a place for Mac.
That is not our call.
You're overwhelmed, Nicole.
There's no shame in admitting you need help to get Mac help.
He'll hate me.
You got to move out.
Soon as they find someone who'll take you.
Okay, stop.
Not everything is about you.
Doctors say I'm dying,
and there's nothing they can do about it.
Tough titmouse.
He won't hate you.
He'll just be very scared.
You have been given an enormous challenge
that a lot of people couldn't handle.
I know you'll find the strength to keep going.
I will.
Thank you.
Five years from now...
I want you to tell my parents something.
Tell them I never want to see them again.
Dr. Melendez, I know a kid who had a lot of issues,
got into a lot of trouble, fights, mainly with his dad.
And when I met his dad, I understood.
He was a real piece of work.
So, I stepped up, found the kid a place to live,
got him a pretty decent job.
But he was already too... broken.
He needed a lot more than a friendly cop.
He needed a doctor.
The next guy he got in a fight with had a gun.
Nicole trusts you.
And that's why you have to give her permission to let go.
How are we supposed to give advice
without dragging our baggage into it?
Maybe our baggage informs our advice,
gives us perspective,
maybe even wisdom.
Maybe you're confusing baggage with experience.
What's the difference?
If I knew, I wouldn't be up here.
Mom was out of town.
I can't take any more of this.
You caught me high for the umpteenth time.
Maddie, why are you doing this?
The night I'd broke another promise,
and you decided to quit the bargaining and the threats and take action.
So you dragged me outside and locked the door.
I prayed you would come and find me.
Why didn't you come and find me?
I thought that
you would go to Jessica's.
I thought you'd go to Aunt Becky's.
- If I had any idea... - Oh, if you thought I'd die that night,
you would've let me back in? Good to know.
How could you do that?
Why would anyone do that?
I don't get it!
How dare you do that!
Maddie, look at me!
I died that day, Maddie.
I died that day, too.
I don't get it! I don't get it!
I don't get it!
Is there a problem?
No.
I just wanted to talk to you before we started the surgery.
Kitty doesn't want you here when she wakes up.
She'll change her mind.
With time, she will change her mind.
I have somebody in my life who's self-destructive,
and there have been times
when I could've forced her into treatment, and...
I'm sure it would've helped...
For a while.
But...
I think I have been pushing you because
I sometimes think I made the wrong choice.
But she would've hated me.
And I would've lost her.
You're trying to save your daughter,
but I think you're gonna lose her.
Forever.
If we do this, she will grow and learn.
And when she walks down the aisle with her loving husband,
and when she holds her baby in her arms for the first time,
we may not be there,
but those are the gifts we're giving her.
And it's enough.
It will have to be enough.
Maddie, please.
Maddie... Maddie, look... Look at me.
Maddie, don't...
- Maddie! - 2 milligrams haldol.
No... No, don't... No, I... I can't let...
I... I can't have her leave me like this.
Maddie.
Please don't leave me like this, Maddie.
I should've held on to you. I sh...
I sh... I should've...
I should've held on to you
until... Un... Until you talked to me.
I should've held on.
I...
Your mother
wanted to send you to rehab.
And I said no.
I... I said "No. I can fix it!
"She's my little girl! She'll listen to me!"
I wanted to be the hero.
I wanted to earn you back.
I wanted you to love me again,
like you did once upon a time.
It was stupid.
And I... I don't know what to say,
except I'm sorry.
I... I'm sorry.
I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I...
I know you loved me, Daddy.
I loved you, too.
If you send Mac away,
there will be people who think you let him down,
question your love for him.
They'll say you gave up on him as a parent
and took the easy way out.
They may even hate you for it.
But those people,
they don't understand.
I didn't.
Giving him up will be the hardest thing
that you will ever have to do.
But maybe you need to do it
because of your love for him.
The surgery went well.
As long as you stick to the program,
you'll be walking within eight to twelve weeks.
Or less.
Great.
You know, your parents did this
because they love you, Kitty, so much.
I know.
Mom, I'm sorry!
No, Mom!
No! Shut up! Stop it!
You gather up all your crap?
Yes. I checked three times.
Good, 'cause anything you leave, I'm chucking.
I'm scared.
Tough titmouse.
I'm not a hallucination.
You've been asleep for 13 hours.
Hmm.
Was seeing Maddie therapeutic?
She said she loved me.
Hmm.
That's very good.
Or maybe it was just me telling myself that.
You always tell the truth.
Thank you, Shaun.
Hey, kid.
Neil!
Mi amorcita.
Hey.
I almost did my puzzle.
I can see that.
That's a great job, Gabi.
Mom and Dad gave it to me for my birthday.
Yeah. I... I remember.
Are Mom and Dad coming for me today?
Oh, mama.
No.
No, no, they can't.
Gabi, we love you,
but you have way more fun here than at their place.
I think I see a piece of the cow.
Thank you for letting me crash.
Yes.
You
rented an apartment?
No.
I'm gonna get an Airbnb.
All right.
What happened in Hershey?
Do you care?
I tried to... be nice,
and I tried to go big,
and I don't want to walk away,
and everyone likes doughnuts.
And I don't know how to answer that.
Just be honest.
I...
don't care what happened in Hershey.
But I care that you care.
You want to try that song again?
Oh, yes!
Then, okay.
Okay.
♪ Tender love is blind ♪
♪ It requires ♪ ♪ It requires a dedication ♪
♪ All this love we feel ♪
♪ Needs no... ♪ - I went bigger.
♪ We ride it together
♪ Uh-huh ♪
♪ Making love... ♪ - I rented that apartment
you liked for us to share.
♪ Oh, oh Islands in the stream ♪
♪ That is what we are ♪
♪ No one in between ♪
♪ How can we be wrong? ♪